spring is here!

hello again....jeeezzzz its been soo long since i last wrote a blog.
well i am here now! :) and ready to spill the beans about this past week.

this week i started KICKBOXING, SWIMMING, AND SHAM.
swimming is intense i feel like the teacher is trying to make us into mini micheal phelps' and its gross he swims in his spedo!!! but i had fun in class. i learned how to work my core in the WATER! how cool is that? we had to do warm up, group warm up excercise, air exchange/strenthening core interval, and another building core interval. that one was hard becase we had to do laps with only one hand and breathe on opposite sides that we swam with!! but it was nice to be in the pool again i hope i get a tan!!!

kickboxing was CRAZY intense. the teacher lady is really cool!! and shes nice but shes super toned and she works us hard. i realized i signed myself up for intermediate/advanced so that was a plesant surprise. :) but its not too bad i learned alot and we trained alot and i felt like my limbs were going to fall off...not to mention i was embarassed because i was sweating buckets!! sooo grosssss.

the work with sham this week as ok. i made two "new friends" as he calls them. they are two weights 10 lbs. each. fuuunnnnn. yesterday was particularly hard but it was nice to hear his comments afterwards. he told me that i was gettin better at recovery, which means my lungs and body is get stronger and can handle more work, which means i am doing really well with my training!! :)

i also got my first weight results back this week and i was kind of disapointed. but after we talked about it, it all made sense. I lost a few pounds in pure body fat, all of my bmi%s went down! :) and i lost a total of 6.5 inches. i feelll sooo much better. i have more energy, i fit better into clothes, i have more confidence. i cant wait til i go to see the thyroid doctor and see what they tell me...and im excited to lose more! wish me luck!!

unfortunately all good things come to an end

today is my second to last day of my VERY boring and uneventful spring break. i did get to hang out with some of my old high school friends, my cousins, and family, but i did miss the beach and the warm LA sun. although i was not tanning this spring break or off on a wild trip with my friends. i got to catch up on my sleep :) awwww zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzs. and i got to continue my workout schedule without any interrutption! there was noo temptation to eat bad food, no one to taunt me with goodies i could not have, because i was home i was able to concentrate. which is good because i know my weigh in is coming soon! i hope i get some good news! especially because my birthday is coming up really soon!!!!

i worked out everyday this week :) even when i didnt want to. i burned soooo many calories and i am sooo proud. my mom gave me compliments all week telling me that i am doing a great job with my commitment to this program. and that she is beginning to see real results. i dont see it yet but i think it is because i am afraid to let my hopes up too much. i am nervous for my weigh in but i think that it will help me to allow this weightloss to become a reality!!!

i am excited for my new quarter at school and excited to get to work with sham again!!!! i know he misses me hahahahahaha. he probably misses my complaining and "im going to die" comments in our workouts and my RED GLOW after sweating soooooo much! well it is alll coming sooo soon. better get a little more relaxation before its off to WORKMODE.

jealousy :P

today i woke up at 5:30 am and went to the gym with my mom. her gym is AMAZING! its sooo beautiful. im jealous. we did the eliptical. watched tv on the machine we used!! we were facing a huge glass wall that overlooked the bridge, the bay, and the gorgeous sunrise! i did 45 min. and some light weights :) it was fun working out wit my mom surprisingly. and she made me breakfast today too :) she packed me breakfast b/c i went to work at frank's job today. and she gave me money for lunch and my family decided to order pizza tonite but my mom knew i cant eat that food so she got vietnamese food with me. we shared tofu spring rolls and a sm. bowl of vegetable soup. it was a great day all around. i had fun with her for once! no fights or battles just plain ol' fun :)

oh and did i forget to mention at my moms gym they have INDIVIDUAL SHOWERS that come complete with ORGANIC SHAMPOO and CONDITIONER for all who would like to shower after their workout!!! SOOOO JEALOUS!

sweet relaxation

soooo workouts with sham have been going pretty good. this past week was sooooo hard with stress from finals and housing and workouts i felt POOPED. maybe DEAD is more accurate i dont know. but after a few days of recovery i am back to my usual self.

yesterday i took a tour of the capital with my french cousin beniot who is visiting for the week and my bf. it was alot of fun!!!! we walked around downtown a little and walked to OLD SAC too. old sac was my favorite we went to all the stores and the MAGIC shop was my favorite. i was busy all day but i think all of the walking we did in that HOT HOT sun was considered my workout for the day :) oh and its starting to get hot in davis/sac and i need to get some summer clothes!! :)

i think i even got a lil tan yesterday !!

feels like a DISASTER

just met with sham and i am disappointed. not in him or the workout, but in myself. i think that stress is getting the best of me. i FAILED at todays workout. i couldnt do anything right! i have finals tomorrow, i have a paper to finish, i am homeless for next year, and todays meeting went horribly. i do not know what to do with myself.

to top it all offfffffff i get to go to a math study event (which i have to pay $10 to get into). STUDY FOR CALC. then come home to wat a 107 min and 53 sec review video for chem. STUDY FOR CHEM. then take the practice final. get some sleep. then wake up and be in finals alllll dddaaayyy from 1:30pm-10pm. i hate my life.

and i feel bad for sham cuz i kinna gave up on him. :/
i need a miracle! to get me through today and tomorrow and to find me housing for next year!
pray for me.

finals finals finals.

so this week is the death of me. SERIOUSLY this time. i have finals, sham, and more finals.

last weeks workout on friday was really tough and i thought i wasnt gonna make it. i felt defeated after stressing for midterms and my housing situation that i thought i had no energy left to fight through the workout. but i did it!!!! i was especially proud of those 100 squat-swing thingies that i did! those were the HARDEST part.

saturday i took the day off :) sham granted me one day to relax. and yesterday i wasnt able to get much in :( but i did walk from amtrak to my dorm. and although that is NOT far....guess what my bf and i were carrying?? i felt like a nomads or hobos or something...i had my backpack full of all three books and my labptop. then i had a bag of laundry and in the other hand one of those HUGE gallon water bottle thingies!! and my ppoooorrr bf had his EMPTY backpack. my OTHER douffle bag with clothes and TWO huge waterbottles. BUT GUESS WHAT?? WE MADE IT!! all the way home. so i was proud of that.

and today i went to the ARC with my roomies :) it was fun. they did the bikes and i did the elliptical. i feel accomplished for the day. now i get to go back to studying and stressing for my CHEM and CALC final and my SOC paper!!! aaaaahhhhhhh!!!!

hope sham has pity on my tomorrow! hahah but most likely he wont.

ahhhhh MIDTERMS!!

i met with sham yesterday :) we did a hard workout. so hard that i got ROPE burn on my palms!! but no worries its going away...actually practically gone today but my hands were sooo red yesterday. but in away it was cool because everytime someone asked me why they were red or what happened...or they started to hurt i remembered why. i did 60 backwards pushup things!!! and i did them in sets. and i did alot of them in a row!!! THIS IS CRAZY!! i dont think anyone gets this but me, but i am pretty weak. i admit it. and to think that i am doing all these crazy things and actually COMPLETING THEM and DOING the workouts on my own and stuff its pretty cool. to me at least. hehehe.

anyways today i went to the ARC again and i did the tredmill. i did three miles and this time i mixed it up a lil. so i by the end i was able to WALK 2 miles at a fast pace. and RUN/JOG 1 whole mile!!!! i called my mom to tell her and she was amazed :) she says it sounds like i am working hard and i am. i think i am starting to feel that working out daily boosts my energy!! and now i get to use all of that NEW FOUND ENERGY to study for my midterm tomorrow AAAHHHHHHH HELP!!! gtg. study study study. and do a postlab for chem. bleeeehhhh.

and the week begins....

sunday i walked 3.2 miles to safeway!! i was sooo excited. it was nice to be outside, with my boyfriend, and walk. we talked and before i knew it we were there!! i got to buy snacks for this week!! i am sooo excited i got tons of goodies like nectorines (mmmm my favorite!), apples, baby carrots with hummus, and some organic crackers. i still need to get water though. and on our way back we stopped at PETCO to see the kitties!! and the fish in the aquarium. on the way back it was a little harder because all the stuff we bought started to get heavier. but we evened out the weight so it wasnt so bad.

today i went to the gym with my friend jasmin! i saw my other friend angel there too...its nice to see that there are alot of ppl at the gym...all shapes and sizes and they all are working hard so it kind of serves as motivation for me to fit in and get started on my workout :) the workout was long but not to bad because jasmin and i talked aobut our weekends...CRAZZYYYY. anyways i came home did some homework while i cooled down and now i am off to the shower!!

i get to see sham tomorrow...wonder what he has in store for me this week. hopefully it gets easier like he said it would :)

having fun...for a price...

ok so today is saturday....

recap before this point....REEWWWWIIINNNDDD...
friday: worked out with sham...i ran/kept moving non stop for 30 min straight! wow i was surprised...at first it didnt seem so long, it went by really fast...but the last 10 minutes or so was slow because i was running the entire time...im not a runner and i HATTEEE running with a pasion but sham taught me that its not how fast you go its just important that you KEEP MOVING the more you move the more calories you burn :)

i threw a party for my roomate tonite and we had alot of fun! i tried to be on my best behavior staying away from soda, and only drinking minimally....oh and i drank water too! :)

but i was bad today (saturday)...i did not go to the ARC like i was supposed to...and although i had fun today i still feel bad that i didnt go to the ARC because i know that i have to EARN what i do. i plan to go to the ARC tomorrow. and hopefully do my core tonite before bed :)

i know i am not PERFECT yet...but i am proud i have come this far! my mom and my boyfriend especially are really impressed with my efforts with the whole "life changes" thing. im trying really hard, and although i am not quite there yet where i should be i am getting better :)

i know i still need to work on EARNING the bad stuff....it is really hard sometimes but i plan to keep working hard!

goodnight <3

but you said only 3 ROUNDS!! hahaha

so recap for the week so far.....

monday: i worked out on my own!! i did 3 miles total on the tredmill and i actually RAN a full .5 miles straight. i am not a runner...never have been...but i ran it!! and i did it!! and i was SOOOO PROUD of myself.

tues: met with sham and he ALMOST KILLED me.....or at least it felt that way while i was doing the workout. it was really tough because he kept me moving the entire time so i had no time to rest until it was over. and he tricked me!! he told me we were only going to do 3 rounds but we did 4. although it was hard, and i was tired and i must admit frustrated....i was happy in the end because i finished the workout. he sed something that really sunk in today-"you are stronger than you think". i think this workout proved it.

wednesday: i worked out on my own and went to the arc. i did the elliptical for 45 minutes and finished with 3.2 miles!! and i burned over 350 calories!! i was sooo sore from the day before with sham that i was considering cheating and quitting early but i didnt!!....but i did learn something new today...DO NOT do core AFTER cardio it is waaaayyy to hard and you will feel like your going to collapse. i only got through one cycle of core after my cardio workout.

thursday (TODAY!!): so today i met with sham again and he worked me as usual. we did the rounds again which i think are really hard!! its hard to keep moving when your body feels sooo sorrreeee...but he says that it is going to get easier if i keep working out on my own the days we dont meet and continue to work hard with him. I HOPE SO!

so i was talking to my mom the other day and she asked me if i have felt and changes....like my clothes fitting looser or anything yet. and unfortunately not...well not the clothes thing yet but hopefully soon!!...but i do notice that i get waaaayyy full after eating SMALLER portions, and i eat more times a day :), and i notice that my water intake is going up! and im proud that i am sticking with excercising on my own. :)

first blog!

ok so today i did my first individual workout that sham gave me to do when i am not with him. i did my core and i speed walked 3 miles! i actually ran .5 miles straight i was sooo proud of myself! getting used to the new eating habits and workouts are hard at times but i have soo many people who are supporting me to succeed and lose weight! my boyfriend especially helps to keep me on track and make sure i am eating right and excercising when i should.

so far i think the most important things i have learned that i have implimented directly in my life are WATER WATER WATER! i need to work on drinking water. I haven't had soda or juice for i dont know how long now. and all i drink is water. but i still need to work on uping my intake. another important think i learned was that you should have one protein, one fiber, and fruits/veggies with EVERY meal, even snacks! this is something i find hard to do with snacks but not so much with daily meals.

i think my hardest challenge is the WEEKENDS. most of the time i go out with my friends or my boyfriend and it makes it harder to resist all the good foods that i love to eat. i find that i am pretty good at resisting temptations, but when i see other people eating those foods i cant, it makes it 9893247366123198 times harder to resist.

i have found that i am starting to effect those around me. because my friends see me eat healthier and drink only water and work out with sham, it kind of helps to keep them in check too.

i am excited for more changes to come! and faster too! summer is coming soon and so is my birthday. i would loooooveee to lose weight and feel happier about myself for the summer. especially when i see all my old friends and family and i can live it up in the sun with a new cute bathing suit! :)